Patience

and so i’m composing this on my way to bugis to meet team velace for dinner. (in case you don’t know, that’s the group that did the tennis/sports wheelchair of which i was a part of in year 3) I must admit that i’ve had differences with some of them before, and i still do now, but seeing as all’s past i’d rather let bygones be bygones – especially so as some of them are really valued friends.

I’ve had quite a busy day today organising the necessary apparatus and going down to the lab supplies store in science to grab the necessary or top up the damaged/missing stuff for our project. As a result, the thoughts that really hit home over the past few days haven’t been able to be expressed in words (or in digital format, as the case may be) here. I’d also like to get it all out before i forget what i’ve had thought through and it becomes one of things that i’ve wanted to blog but didn’t get to it fast enough and as a result they never appeared here.

As some may know, i’m a rather impatient person. I may or may not like things done my way, but whether they are or not, i like efficiency almost to a fault. As you can guess, i’m the kind of person who would curse ans swear when met with traffic jams, late buses, etc. It’s rather ironic that i myself am late for the dinner appointment as i blog this.

Many times i’m impatient because they way things are happening are not the most efficient way of doing things. Other times i feel it’s a waste of my time, or like most of us i feel that what’s happening is going to make me late for something else or cause some form of incovenience. What i’ve regularly had to learn over the last 4 years (and evidently have still not learned now) is that..

1) Things happen for a reason. I’m sure quite a few of us have had the experience that if things had gone the way we wanted, they would have turned out much worse than they did. Sometimes we actually even notice that happens. I know this reason isn’t exactly the most convincing reason for being patient with whatever happens, but i can’t deny that it happens, no matter how infrequent. That being said, this reason is the weaker of the two and i don’t have anything other than circumstantial evidence to back it up. But this is my blog after all, and i’m just putting down my thoughts XD

2) Things happen in God’s time. This reason may not make sense to many of us, but the first reason is really a subset of this one. Those of us who share the same belief are familiar with the phrase ‘His ways are higher than ours’, but like me, fail to live such adages out. Perhaps a more relevant edition of the quote would be ‘His timing is higher/better than ours’. I find it difficult to see why we would have problems understanding this, but even more difficult to me is the understanding itself (what a paradox)! We are, after all, only 3-D..our God created the dimensions and is not confined by space nor time as we understand it. He is everywhere, everywhen, and perhaps every-‘even more than we can express’! Yet it is a constant struggle to realize in actuality that He has greater, bigger, more complete designs than we can ever perceive from our limited dimensional point of view.

I recently read a devotional that suggested that the question ‘How long?’ when posed to God is really an insult. It means we deem our perspectives higher than God’s (to say the least…there’s more to this, but i deem this to be the concept of it. check out http://www.atgodstable.com for more details!) And in a way, in this context, how true it is!

That being said, such thinking is no reason for lack of planning – that’s simply not using what God gave us, i.e. brains. (And we all know what happens to gifts that are not used ya? They get taken away!) But perhaps this provides a new perspective to certain things – maybe now we can view traffic jams as something that God planned. Hard to believe? How about a delay in your work? Or administration? Or experiments that don’t give us what results we want? It gives a totally new perspective, and perhaps would make people like me a little more understanding of what happens, rather than bitch about it (which is what i normally do).

Of course, this is only one perspective of patience that i’ve written on here – i’ve covered patience with regard to others before and i think my journey of discovery on patience is far from done.

After all, it is He who has to be patient with us all the time isn’t it?

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It’s the next day in school already, and i effectively spent the whole day running around getting admin done.  Despite what i posted earlier, i must say that i’m still human (at least the last time i checked) and so i’m not infalliable – all the while i was running around from lab to EA to lab to science to EA to lab (you get the idea) i was wondering why the administration stuff always seems to cause problems no matter what i do or how fast i get things done.  It always seems to be that some office involved somewhere in some small minute way will find a way to delay things.  Doesn’t help that i’m nursing a severe headache today and i really just want to get rid of it.  As much as i’m trying to understand the patience perspective that i mentioned about above, the natural instinct in me really wishes that things moved a lot smoother and i didn’t have to deal with the stress of the possibility of about 5k disappearing from my bank account come this august.




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